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[Saturday April 18th, 2009 at 12:55pm] i still cant get past you it doesnt feel possible you were  my best friend and so much more X

[Wednesday April 1st, 2009 at 11:36pm] staring at soft white orbs i realize that nothing can fix it as im starting to move towards making my shot theres no wind but the wind of my own lungs whisping air out like im gasping for some miracle golden statue saying ive won but i swallow my pride and envision things as the world ends and i say to myself its been a good ride but im still here so i sit and wonder what waits before me nestled in a land i do not know X

weird skittle [Friday June 6th, 2008 at 8:53pm] ( im getting bad with cuts )   X

[Wednesday June 4th, 2008 at 10:52pm] its like running into your 5th grade crush that you could never even say hello to on the bus but realizing that she's now a rocket scientist  and world famous model instantly realizing that your self worth is zero and you have a single chance to say one thing to her you realize you have nothing you lose thats my biggest fear X

recent scores [Tuesday June 3rd, 2008 at 2:34am] ( best ) X

[Sunday May 25th, 2008 at 4:42am] i remember when this late meant knowing the night never ended i remember when these movies used to scare the hell out of me i remember when i could listen to songs off a soundtrack and feel colors rush over me i remember when i was in a house i'll never be apart of again i remember when i got lost in the smells of the carpet i remember when i rode bikes endlessly at dusk with my friend, who i miss i remember when i thought i was someone completely different i remember when i knew i was destined for something else i remember that i fucked up i remember when my face was blasted without feeling i remember all the fuckups i remember all the things i didnt say i remember all the things i did say the motto is to live without regrets but as each day goes by, in which i do i realize ive lost more than ive gained but i dont want it different ive become another hypocrit i cling to material things to keep my day going i love someone i cant touch ill never get to talk to my mom again i think i already reside in hell and i wont get out of purgatory i remember swinging towards the sky in 5th grade with my friend beside me a crush feeling like this was it i dont know why i am who i am i remember when i didnt have to be this blasted to be so introspective im going to rip all the ivory to shreds and smear cherry blossoms over a spring sky to make it autumn again, so i can feel that brisk wind that brought me happiness and ethereal highs no drugs could produce. id live that life a thousand times over before i was due to task something else. ive slowly been ripped apart by myself X

Jung Typology Test [Tuesday May 13th, 2008 at 6:00pm] Your Type is ISTJ Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging Strength of the preferences % 56 12 25 1 Qualitative analysis of your type formula You are: moderately expressed introvert slightly expressed sensing personality moderately expressed thinking personality slightly expressed judging personality X

[Monday May 12th, 2008 at 8:55pm] i could die happy, today dial M, for murder X

[Thursday April 24th, 2008 at 12:50am] miss you, mouskateer meg X

[Monday March 31st, 2008 at 4:05am] [ music | sevendust- home- bender ] so ive pretty much affirmed Ive stumbled on some sort of overload the second i go anywhere the shit hits the fan, and I go from casual onlooker to participant i honestly cant even log onto here without getting requests for help in some life or two hell I can barely keep myself from just falling over and sucking in dirt right now a fucking vaccuum would be so nice just so I could get swept away. the best things ive come to enjoy this past week: more flirtations with cigarettes sevendust the one and only nutmeg de wassssshingtoniania (actress of the year) turning my fan on high, staring up at the black ceiling at night, trying to imagine im flying I'll buy you the davenport, someday. or the duck hotel, M.

mixed bag, no regrets [Wednesday March 19th, 2008 at 8:20pm] ( This is St Louis in three pictures. No more, No Less, Not Again ) X

[Sunday March 16th, 2008 at 2:19pm] vodka_zachary says: concrete is so cool vodka_zachary says: bunkers made of concrete are ridiculously hard to destroy Teemu says: yeah, concrete is awesome Teemu says: i could watch concrete all day long vodka_zachary says: im serious, concrete rocks Teemu says: oh man.,.. http://www.concreted.com/Concrete-Concrete_Foudations.jpg so sexy Teemu says: i'm so hot right now :D vodka_zachary says: thats hardcore X

[Tuesday February 26th, 2008 at 1:20am] i know who you are you should be who you should be but i know there's something more deep down, to unlock 2 signed[ * ]X

[Tuesday February 19th, 2008 at 2:39pm] the old wounds were still fresh but swimming in them felt odd i dont think they're sewn dont really think they ever will be oh well X

[Sunday January 13th, 2008 at 3:05pm] So I bought this soap last night that reminds me of a happier time. I'd like to know what the scent is, but Im too lazy to get up at the moment. that soap bottle basically has feelings I wont get back, I think. X

[Tuesday January 1st, 2008 at 9:21pm] sometimes the past feels better than a warm dream id rather forget the future than forget the past as much as i shun it away that one time ill never have it again but i want it so much X

[Friday December 21st, 2007 at 10:23pm] miss jummapums if youre out there i miss you with all my heart and i love you i hope youre okay woozyboy 2 signed[ * ]X

out of the blue , into passion, out of being, out of existence [Friday December 14th, 2007 at 8:30pm] sometimes it feels like everything just floats walking here, walking there just seemingly from nowhere i do what i can, and certainly do what I will and sometimes end up happier than head over heels today was quite a conundrum i went in with a high heart and was let down with another another chance was blown, and anger did arise but in the simplest of places did my moment of clarity surprise i recieved something i had nothing to do with just a breeze blowing me down so starstruck i revelled in it only to lust for the one thing i had swore so moving against myself it was my soul that was sore the last time i go back i go back with a fresh mind, and a renewed vision this silly rhyme not of passion but of coincidence there are people in my life that i could not do without and they are who these experiences are worth, without a doubt i take them for granted, even though i know better and sooner than later, im back where im in the rain that much wetter but there is one most of all who knows who they are that takes me away, so very far they should be happy, excited, and a child tagging clouds as they fly by that person is who my heart belongs to that person is who it wants to die with that person is who i love

[Wednesday December 5th, 2007 at 11:47am] personal note to self: please post when things happen, not days after repeated the trip the casino this past sunday night at 10:00 proceeded to put 1 dollar in the penny slot machine gross winnings were 1855.25 525.25 cents the week before off 5 dollars 43.75 the week before that off 5 dollars X

money [Monday November 26th, 2007 at 3:01pm] last night at 1030 or so , i won 525 dollars off a 10 dollar investment (some dude left 5 in the slot machine, i put in another 5) in the powerball slot machine at the casino. i was entirely too drunk to play. but im 525 dollars richer now. and i got to talk to the very best girl ever after it happened. i think that was a good night. X

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